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To Unlove — The Impossible

For most, whenever they get their hearts broken, they would often think that the only way to move on is to forget and to unlove. Personally, I do not believe in the concept of "unloving" someone. I've always been a firm believer that if you were able to unlove someone, it means you never truly loved them. Love transforms in different ways and can be found in different forms. You can definitely move on, but if love is real, you can never unlove.  Think about it for a moment. Think about the person you were in love with, someone you thought you'd spend the rest of your life with but ended up crying over. Were you really able to unlove them? Or did your love changed its form from romantic love to affectionate love or selfless love? What I learned about moving on is that they key to it is acceptance. We accept the reality that we fought the love we thought we deserved but it just wasn't meant for us. The memories will never disappear. It will come every now and then w...

Project Bring Back the heART

COVID-19 obliges us to take care of ourselves. Due to many constraints, it is important that besides our physical wellbeing, our mental health gets to be prioritized just as much. For me, it was difficult to stay home 24/7, so after a month and a half of having the country placed under lockdown, I decided to get back to work.  My job doesn't have the work-from-home option, like most do, plus, It was my way to escape the confines of home for at least 10 hours a day, 5 days a week. Still, even if I was able to go out to report for work, you look around and it's evident that everything has changed. It messed me up.  While obeying all the health protocols of sanitizing, wearing a mask, a face shield and doing my responsibilities at work, I also took it upon myself to reflect on how I have been taking my life for granted these past few years. To be honest, the pandemic helped me put things into perspective.  I've been so unmotivated for the longest time. I just go day by day, ...

"We accept the love we think we deserve"

You can hear a quote a million times in a single lifetime but not truly understand what it means until you've finished an entire bottle of wine, and it hits you. Just like that. It's probably the wine over exaggerating everything right now, but at this point, who cares?  My sister was watching the Perks of Being a Wallflower on Netflix while I was busy talking to someone I met online. So, I was on a video chat with this girl who happened to be too occupied to have a decent conversation with me. It was a random moment when I heard Paul Rudd say "we accept the love, we think we deserve." I didn't even know that quote came from that book, I literally had to search it on google just to make sure.  So anyway, it was at that moment that I realized what the quote meant for me. You see, I recently went through a break up that I never thought I could ever get over. I'm not saying I'm over it a hundred percent, but I am better, and I know that I'm doing bette...

2020 Update

And I'm back! Never been the most consistent person but I do apologize for not making an entry in over a year. A lot has happened so let's catch up.  I know I'm 7 months too late for this, but welcome 2020! I get it, 2020? Not exciting. But it's a new year and I think we can all agree, 2020 changed our lives and it still does. And you know the saying, New Year, new me.  Last year, I was unemployed and was going through a lot of stuff. I thought that after having an experience in writing that it would be easy for me to find a replacement job. I was on a bunch of interviews for different companies but I never got in. I was so devastated. That's when I started feeling like I was not good enough to make a career out of writing. I felt like a big, fat, joke.  Months passed and I started thinking about studying again. Besides film and writing, there is one other thing that I always wanted to do, teaching. So, I started researching on how I would be able to teach a class. ...

Instant Gratification vs. Delayed Gratification

The first day I stared at this particular blank page with this particular topic was around September of 2018. I learned about instant gratification and delayed gratification when I was in college and it followed me from there. I don't really remember what my former professor was discussing at the time, but the words delayed  and gratification  stuck to me like a leech. I realized then and there how most of us in the  millennial  generation is all about instant gratification. But being part of this generation, I do understand why... given all the technology available for us to use. Then again, I sometimes wish I wasn't given much luxury growing up. No, my family is not well off, not then, and not now. But like many middle-class families, we get to taste a few luxuries every now and then. Meaning, I was never deprived of anything, and though I never got the latest phones or tablets, I never felt like I was missing out. What I'm trying to say is that I wish I was born...

PILI PELIKULA: Crazy Rich Asians

Crazy Rich Asians is by far the craziest feel-good movie of 2018. All aspects of the film were perfectly well-thought of and all elements blended well with each other, too. Knowing that there are hundreds of existing racial discriminations and Asian stereotypes all over the world, especially in the US,  I knew beforehand that it was gonna be hard to pull off. But darn it, the author and other storytellers of CRA sure do know how to prove people wrong. But before anything else, I want to discuss the film's technical elements in detail: TRAILER CRA trailer led me to have crazy expectations that I seriously doubted they could not uphold. but boi was I wrong?  It was produced in America so it was understandably fast-paced and playful, which I'd like to believe was the reason why it attracted so many people. I mean, it did, for me at least. CINEMATOGRAPHY Visuals. Visuals. Visuals! It's the first thing I notice. Now I know that some films don't require a big ass b...

Underrated Music Playlist

There are millions of great music from different artists and genres. Granted that everyone has a different taste when it comes to music, there are still many great songs that have remained so underrated that most of them don't even appear on Spotify or Apple music. Now, I know what you're thinking, these songs are probably by unknown artists. You're not wrong, what I am about to list down may have been written by artists you've never heard before. But there will be some that are written and performed by popular artists today. Before I gave you the list, I  just want to share why I thought about blogging about this. You see, right now, I'm at work and had just finished my day's quota. I was searching on Apple music for some old songs that I loved listening to growing up and I got extremely disappointed not finding a thing. I ended up listening on Youtube using my work PC instead. Anyway, without further ado here's my  Underrated Music Playlist . (p.s. mos...

50 Never Have I Ever (Rated PG)

I've been thinking about how I can post at least one blog in a week again without running out of topics. So I thought to just keep things simple one week at a time. For today, I will share 50 things that I have never done in no particular order. I've always find this game amusing and I know I'm not the only one who runs out of things to say during the game, so I hope this helps/ although since this will publicly posted and I'm not sure who'll be reading this, I will keep it as clean as I could. Note that some may make my life seem boring (because that point in my life actually existed), and some are actually just a part of my bucketlist. NEVER HAVE I EVER... 1. Watched a horror film inside a theater. 2. Shopped for make-up. 3. Went surfing. 4. Went hiking. 5. Eaten sushi. 6. Had my own room. 7. Had a pet cat. 8.Went skydiving. 9. Been outside Asia. 10. Went scuba diving. 11. Kissed the opposite gender. 12. Shoplifted. 13. Been arrested. 14. Snoope...

Home

I'm home! I never really left, but for the first time in a long time, I was reminded again of how it felt like to be home. I still remember the first time we had a real physical encounter. It was one of those days when I didn't know why I was there but I was. She was beautiful and we had a great time, me, her and a few other people. I would've "made a move" if I hadn't embarrassed myself by getting way too drunk, but then again, I have always been a believer of timing, and I know that whatever happened, happened for a reason. After a year, I purposely made our paths cross again not knowing where it would lead me. The timing? It was perfect because after many years I finally got rid of all my baggage from my past. It was that point in my life where I knew I've truly moved on from every bit of pain. I learned how to accept myself better, I realized my actual worth and I've finally convinced myself that I deserved more than what I had to go throug...

The Rule of Exception

Hey! I know that it's been awhile since I last posted a blog, I just got crazy busy with the new job and well... I mostly spend my Saturdays with friends and my Sundays in bed, in short, I'm basically still trying to get used to having a job. Anyway, today I wanna talk about something my cousin and I talked about during one of our tequila sessions; The Rule of Exception  (is what I like to call it). So what is this “Rule of Exception” See this is when a heterosexual individual gets attracted, either physically or sexually, or simply gets involved with a homosexual individual or another heterosexual individual and vice versa. When I was in high school my girlfriend at that time sent me a link to a Youtube video of a lesbian couple discussing all types of lesbians, I wish I remembered what all of them were, and who that couple was, but the only term that struck me the most is what they called Exception . They defined Exception as someone who's straight who happened to b...

PILI PELIKULA: Last Night (Spoilers Ahead)

Hauntingly Beautiful  - this is how I would describe Bb. Joyce Bernal's film,  Last Night , starring Piolo Pascual and Toni Gonzaga. I won't say it's perfect but in most aspects, it had the perfect elements to create something unconventional for Philippine cinema and its audience. The moment I saw the trailer I was instantly hooked and intrigued, and yes, it took me a while before I was finally able to watch the film, but since its first week I've already started hearing comments about it: On my side of the wall (newsfeed) most of what I read are positive reviews, but I guess it's because many of my friends are movie buffs so their views would be a little bit similar to mine. On the other hand, the other side of the wall seem to have heard a lot of bad reviews. I only got to read full blown reviews after watching the film because I was trying to avoid spoilers. So without further ado, here's every bit of thought I had about the film: First of all, the m...

First APLlogy

Greetings from the East! For those who have read/seen/heard of my last blog page at Tumblr as Makeagoodexcuse, hello again! And for those who happened to be new, welcome! So a few months ago, I decided that I wanted to redirect my blog to something more informative, entertaining, and worth reading.  I’ve had so many other Tumblr accounts for the past 7 years, and my longest running blog was my last one which I used for 4 years. I launched it back when I was in senior high school, I was actually just a few months before graduating at that time and it became my main blog till I finally graduated college last May 2017. Makeagoodexcuse.tumblr.com has been home for me, it had all my college memories and it has every bit of my life published there so naturally I feel nostalgic and sentimental about having to let it go today. But like the saying goes  when one door closes, another door opens (or something like that). My blog redirection process includes more than wha...